Azure
July 18, 2026 at 6:04:34 AM
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Okay I know I commented a few days ago, but I forgot that I've been wanting to say this for a while when I made that comment, so forgive me.
I'm super obsessed with how you write Senbei, and specifically his psychosexual fixation on Timber. I find it to reflect the realities of living as a marginalized person really well (specifically, as a transgender woman, and in a general queer context).
Countless transphobic lobbyists have been exposed for liking (eg on the artist formally known as Twitter)/extensively watching pornography featuring transgender women. Iirc, in NWT, Senbei even says, in the commentary of his dream, something about not being a homosexual/not having homosexual desire, which also reflects this. Timber is a man, of course, but the justification of Why This Is Not Gay, Actually is very reminiscent of many cis men's transphobic rhetoric surrounding transgender women in pornography. ("Is liking traps gay?" That age-old transmisogynistic debate.)
It also reminds me of something I was taught in sociology class: studies show that those who express queerphobic sentiments tend to be more excited by queer pornography. Whether that is a result of the hatred or the hatred is a result of the excitement is a chicken or the egg situation which is difficult to decipher, but I know from unfortunate experience that denying one's own desires can feed into bigoted hatred. That desire gives more energy and ferocity to the hatred.
Senbei is delightfully horrible and accurate to real-life bigots in this way, and I want to throw him into an active volcano and study his weird psychosexual shit under a microscope. Not necessarily in that order. May Timber one day be free of this freak, once Senbei gets really drunk and makes out with a wolf/man/wolfman which forces him to actually fucking self-actualize for once
Replied on: July 18, 2026 at 2:49:44 PM
i can't wait to finish week with timber and see everyone's reactions to it, senbei only gets *worse*, it's so exciting...